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Sunday, March 28, 2010

Isn't life's always a bitch?

Iyaz - Solo.
It's AWESOME.
It makes my heart beats faster.
I don't know why.
It's quite a sad song but the music's so nice..
=)

I've been yellowlight-ing.
I guess I miss you,
still.

Sigh.
Life still goes on.

Well,
all dates no commitments.
My theory is I have a theory!
LOL!

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Isn't life's always a bitch?

I've been working and working and working!
Tired.
Worst of all I had another quarrel with parents today.
=(
Parents suck.
They always start the conversation nicely,
making you feeling uber homesick (afterall I'm like back once a year?),
then they slowly drill into the conversation they want and tries to dig whatever they want.

I was so angry I sent out texts to both of them saying if they want to discuss that issue ever again,
they don't have to call me anymore.

Am I doing the right thing?

Yesterday was D&D.
The runway was alright I suppose.
The dance was funny.
=)
I'm proud of them.
The afterparty was a bummer.

I was left alone with my 3 bodyguards.
Nick, Joe and Jimmy.
HAHAHA!
Super attica-ish can!
=)
Mascot love!

Even bruno left to sailing, and not replying emails.
AHHH!

Thanks for the flowers.
To everyone.

Sometimes,
I think of the first time we went out.
Your birthday,
airport,
TCC,
black top and blue jeans,
Tanah Merah mrt.
I miss the moment when you make me look at you, then tell me you love me.

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

Isn't life's always a bitch?

Nowhere?
Sure?

2 weeks ago,
I was having the time of my life.
Now,
I'm like slogging my life off.

Can someone tell me how it became like this?
LOL!

I'm sooooo tired I went to bed at 9pm yesterday,
to wake up at 7.30am today!

=(

I'm sleep deprived!

I want to club,
shop,
movie,
SLACK!

Maybe I should just get married.
LOL!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Isn't life's always a bitch?

Okay,
I passed SIP.
Merely,
PASS.
Seriously,
what's the point?

I hate studies.
I hate school.
I hate lecturers.
I HATE FUCKING PEOPLE WHO GRADE US.

I shall not put in anymore effort into studies.
I will cruise my way through uni because I HAVE to get a degree.
I will fuck care GPA.

New life resolution.
PARTY HARD, WORK LESS.

_________________________________________________________
I watched Crazy Hearts.
So reminded me of dad.
Sometimes I'm scared.
Really very scared.
I mean,
Dad's not young.
If something happened to him,
my last words to him would be the most unkind ones.
Yet,
I can't bring myself to forgive him.

How can I forgive and forget?
He deserves it.
Every bit of it.

Dad used to be my superman.
Despite everything,
I loved him.
I enjoy walking down the road with him,
fingers crossed.
Now, I barely want to see him.
When I speak to him,
I just want to scold out loud.
I cross my arms.
I don't even want to look at him sometimes.

How did things turn out this way?
Money is the root of all evil.
It really is.
Still,
without it,
nothing works.

I learnt it the hard way.

As for mom,
I can't speak to her properly as well.
She pisses me off so easily.
God I don't know why.
I don't even look forward to her calls anymore.
I'm so tired.
She'll never understand.
No matter how many times I explain,
she never gets it.

________________________________________________________
No one understands.
Everyone thought they know a lot,
but actually no one does.
FYI, my life is not as perfect as it seem to be.

I got my first consultation at Subordinate Courts tomorrow.
I have to settle my uni stuff, which I'm doing it on my own.
I have to wait 1 more week to check on something.
I have to fulfill my 10 years to my first million promise I throwed at Dad.
Thank you very much god.
I don't believe you exist.
Not really.

If you do,
the first thing you should do is to make people like Dad to do what they say.
I nearly spit at him when he talk to me about FAIRNESS.
FUCK YOU BIG TIME MAN.
I can't believe I scolded the F word to Mom that day.
Maybe she gets it this time?
Like finally?

No one knows about the court case.
I'm not sharing with Mom or Dad.
Why?
Because I got a feeling they'll say,
"SEE! That's what you get for not listening to your cousin. Always think you're very smart. Never check properly. YADA YADA YADA."
FYI parents,
If I know I would have step on him with stilettos.

Parents SUCK BIG TIME!

Okay,
I can't wait to get it over and done with, with uni and get on with my life man.

___________________________________________________________
Just want to rant.
Don't ask me anything.
Don't fell like talking about this anymore.
I'll be fine the next morning.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Isn't life's always a bitch?

He texted me first,
when I burnt my brain thinking of to text him or not!
HAHAHAHAH!

Question of the week,
should I perm my hair?
If yes,
before or after D&D?

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Isn't life's always a bitch?

Mom called.
Once again,
I didn't sound nice.

I admit,
I don't respect Dad anymore,
but sometimes I wonder,
20 years down the road,
will I regret how I treat him lately?

Nonetheless,
he deserve every bit of it.

Saturday, March 13, 2010

Isn't life's always a bitch?

I listened back to our recordings.
Our silliness.
If not for ego and stubborness.
I,
might have fallen in love with you.
I miss you badly.
=(

I guess,
afterall you do mean quite a lot.

Isn't life's always a bitch?

To be both mentally and physically stronger.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Isn't life's always a bitch?

After all the emo-ing,
I've decided nothing will happen,
and I should be strong.
Hence,
I need to motivate myself with shopping therapy.

I want:
1) This skirt
http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog%5Fname=FOREVER21&category%5Fname=btms&product%5Fid=2068674579&Page=2%26pgCount%3D100&pgcount=100&sort=lp

and

2) This skirt
http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog%5Fname=FOREVER21&category%5Fname=btms&product%5Fid=2072545740&Page=1&sort=lp

There's no more Small.
Pity.
=(
Aren't they awesome?

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Isn't life's always a bitch?

If one day,
I called you to meet up.

I run to you,
tell you I still love you.
Would you come back?

Or is it still a no?

Taylor Swift forever gets me this way.
Today was a fairy tale is uber nice, I think.

Isn't life's always a bitch?

I've had enough,
but what can I do?
At this rate,
I don't have time for self-pity.

Seriously..
I've have house to look for,
stupid Subordinate Courts stuff,
so much things to find out.
AHH!

=/
Given a choice,
I just want a normal 20 year old life.
But wait,
I sweared to prove you wrong.

MOTIVATION!

I can't believe that happened.
OMG.
Chuck it behind my brain.
I don't wanna think.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Isn't life's always a bitch?

Bubu bit me today!
omggggg...

Calling for HP.
Calling once,
calling twice,
and I MISS YOU!

=(

P/s I'm murderer.

Friday, March 5, 2010

Isn't life's always a bitch?

Genting was AHHHHHH!!!!
That's my expression.
LOL!
It's all about the test run in screaming,
then SCREAM at the top of your lungs.
AHHHHH!!

So basically,
life's not bad.
Haha.

I wanna get to know you.
J.Y.
I shall nickname you,
NO LINK.
LOL!
I'm sorry but you seem so interesting.
Just for fun laughter peace and happiness.
I don't get it.
THAT world is so small and we got NO connection?
HAHA!
Let's play chess!

ALICE IN WONDERLAND WAS AWESOME!!!
I like!